Honor Academy Intern in need

Hey guys! So, I have this amazing friend (Sarah Brooks) who went to India with me, and was at the Honor Academy with me, she works in the call center where she calls leaders across america seeing if they would be willing to go on mission trips and serve as a leader. This girl is an amazing woman of God, and is in need of 400$ by midnight tonight. Let me know if You can help in any way!!! Or you can just got to www.honoracademy.com/donate and you can donate right online with her ID# 2627668
So if you could help in any way, (10bucks means alot) that would be so awesome!

Thoughts at Tim Hortons

Once again, I am so impatient! But I am at my first Tim Horton's ever!!!! any ways. I just got here and I'm just waiting on Lauren to pick me up! Then off to sleep, and TEXAS BOUND tomorrow! I have to use the restroom so badly too, but I cant leave my stuff alone. This sucks!!!I'm looking right across at BGSU's dorms and it makes me miss campus so badly. I want to be there, living life. Sometimes it feels like a dream to me, but i know its not. This is going to be so hard, having to leave campus all over again. Leaving my best friends...all over again...it really does suck the life out of me.
I did apply for 3 different jobs, so hopefully I will get one and it will help me keep my mind off missing Honor Academy.
So, I had an interesting ride here....i drove with one of Markie's friends, who is Mormon, and we had an awesome conversation! She told me a little bit about her religion, and it was cool to get it first hand from someone. I have always heard such negative things about Mormonism, but this has peaked my interest in it, and I want to do some research on it. I know I grew up christian, and I am a christian, so it was totally cool hearing a different belief. Some of it seems the same, going to heaven, the 2nd coming, Jesus Christ dying for us... but some things were different to, like Heaven, John Smith,the trinity, but still super cool to hear about it! I had a horrible experience with Mormons back when they were my neighbors, lots of witchcraft and evil spirits, but from what Elizabeth was saying, it doesn't seem like that. That defiantly makes me want to look into it even more.
I love researching!!

Oh the Deception

Tonight is my last night at home for the next week! Tomorrow I leave at 5pm to head to Lauren's house...and then Thursday.. TEXAS BABY! and the best part is, no one knows I'm coming. Well..except for Catt and Ramey, and Alee, Cass and Ryan... but like, no one else!!
I really want to make it for the Houston ATF and surprise people there, but I doubt that is going to work. But I'll get to see their lovely faces on sunday:) Life is good!! I am in some need for AP time in the back forty! AHHH i am so stinken excited!!!! I know Im gonna bawl my eyes out like a baby when I leave, but it will be so good to see them. Lets hope they let me stay on campus:\
I need to pack, Im not bringing a whole lot down with me, but still, I need to pack. I have all day thursday in a car, and all day friday. BLAH. Luckily I'll be with my sister Lauren! WHOOT! Best.Roadtrip.Ever! Ok.. well I do need to pack, sleep, eat and shower.
more posts and pics of my adventure to come!

10 after 5

Goooood Morning America!!
hahaha, so I can't fall alseep, go figure. In a few short hours I will be waking up and going on a long promised and needed sister date with my little sister to THE MALL!! If I come back with matching Bieber shirts, or any piercings, just shoot me now.
Actually, the reason I think that I cant sleep right now is just everything that is going thru my mind. I have hundreds of thoughts.
1.)i have no plan once i get to texas, no one will really be on campus, and hopefully I can stay on campus....
2.)I got to sit with the youth today during '3-D' and my heart started tearing again for them. I don't know why but I have this love for them that I can't explain, and I hate seeing them hurting, or hurting others.
3.)CCG--cray cray! Dangggg. Uganda for 5 weeks? Human Trafficking in Toledo, Ohio? This bunring passion I have where when I pray to God about it everything in the world fades away, for reals???
Life is so crazy! God is doing crazy awesome stuff. It has been exactly one year since I left my church of 17years and went to Lake Ridge where I feel so loved and accepted. Sometimes when I think of Leroy I want to scream AWAKE AWAKE O SLEEPER!! CHURCH WHY ARE YOU DEAD? The presence of the Lord is here and now with me, and its all just an 'emotion'? NO WAY! No such things like healing can happen anymore? I saw MIRACLES this summer, deaf girl heard, lame man walked, and caleb spat on a mans eyes 7 times and he could finally see! HELLO GOD IS HERE AND PRESENT! No such thing as falling in awe on your face in worship unable to move, being drunk in the Spirit, prophesying over people, speaking in tounges...is that all just a figment of my imagination?
During the Fasting LTE i saw the Lord moving in people like none other. Ive been in worship and I cant do anything but be on my knees in worship before my King!
When I heard of churches who are claiming on thing and teaching another, giving God limits and not holding onto the WHOLE bible as truth, present and active... I really do want to scream...
MY GOD'S NOT DEAD, HE'S SURELY ALIVE!
HE'S LIVING ON THE INSIDE, ROARING LIKE A LION!
-Isaiah 29:9
-Ephesians 5:18
-Acts 2:4
-Luke 1:67
-Mark 9:29
-Mark 16:15-18

India is on my Mind&& Heart

Tonight, I'm missing India. I would do anything to be walking in a village say 'Vannakam' to everyone i see. To hold every baby til I was told I wasnt allowed to anymore, to sit with a woman dying of leprosy, holding her stubbed hands praying with her as she gave her life to the LORD. That is what I want to be doing this snowy sunday morning.

As I sit here listening to Indian music playing in my ear buds, looking at pictures from India, remembering all the hard work and faith it took to get to this amazing place, and then all that hard work looked like nothing compared to what I was able to be apart of last summer. 

I remember walking out of an orphanage, knowing I would never see these kids again, but loving them as if I had known them my whole life. After standing listening to a song they had prepared for us, choking back tears; Shy asked me to pray over them. I have never choked up in a prayer before, I poured my loved into these children, and as I was walking out, one little girl that I had been dancing with grabbed my hand and walked with me to the bus. As we were walking she looked up at my and said 'I love you' How did she even know english? But she said it, and she said it to me!!!

I cried my eyes out on the bus ride back to the place I was calling home all summer. I have never really 'left' my heart somewhere truly. But i know with all my heart that some of my heart remained in India. In the little villages, in the schools, the orphanages, the monastery, the airport, the bus ride, and definitely in the mountains.

I miss that touch that the indian women would give. I could sit there, and they would hold my hand and just smile, then talk to you in Tamil, using broken english and laughing at you when you didnt understand. I miss the tea that the women in the mountian gave to us, causing me and the other team members to have to use the squatees  every 15min! I miss hearing 'Journey Man' in Tamil blasting through the speakers of a Teen Mania sound box. 

Last summer my team, me included were able to reach thousands of natives, some of which had never once in their lives had heard about Jesus, the son of the One True God. I know I will go back to India sometime, I just am waiting for God to reveal when. 

Snowy Day and a Birthday

3 feet of snow. Oh how I miss beautiful Texas.
I went to bed last night after an amazing night of reading and writing with maybe 2 inches of snow on the ground, what a beautiful sight. I woke up this morning to 3 feet, and my mom telling my little sister to stop singing Christmas songs! What a lazy Saturday!
Bitzy also is celebrating her 11th birthday! I was going to have a sister date with her, but the snow hindered that. Sometimes I think she is 11 going on 21....but hey, girls and drama go together like macaroni and cheese.

In 4 days I embark on my adventure to Texas. Driving from Kirtland to Bowling Green College with a Mormon (Lord give me divine appointments and let your words be said!) Then I will spend the night at my beloved Jan Jan's house, Lauren. And the next morning we will begin our drive to TEXAS!

(bitzy playing in the snow)

My Mission Statement

My heartbeat, my passion is to raise up a generation, my generation, as warriors.
A CONSECRATED army, DEVOTED to see GOD'S glory through out the whole world.
From the sidewalks of America to the streets of India.
I will be dedicated, as I surrender and pick up my cross daily.
My prayer continues to be;
"Take my life and let it be, consecrated, Lord to Thee."

Song of the Year

For the battle is raging

The devil is raging

And I don't want to be sleeping

While the battle is raging

I don't fight as one beats the air

Give me eyes to see and ears to hear

I don't fight as one beats the air

Give me eyes to see and ears to hear

Oh God

I put on Christ

Make no provision for my flesh

Put on the whole armor of God

Leave no open door to darkness

And I take the scroll

I eat the scroll

I open up my mouth

And speak forth Your word

And I take the sword of the spirit

Blessed be the Lord my Rock

Who trains my hands for battle

Who trains my hands for war

 

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पवित्रा (holy)

كرس  (devoted)

Waiting on an Answer

I am the most impatient person in the whole world! Somethings I CAN wait for, like the dentist, and getting married. (Yes i did just compare the two)Here are something I can't wait for; going back to Texas, walking on Indian soil again, seeing my best friend...sometimes I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it happen. Sometimes I wish money grew on trees, and life was easy.
I think one of the things I am horrible at waiting for is, the Lord. Waiting for his answers, His direction, His promises, everything.
Psalms 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!


I NEED to hold onto that. Yet it is so hard to do.
Waiting can be easy, but waiting patiently is a whole different story. I feel like sometimes I just sit and twittle with my thumbs as I wait. What is the proper way to wait on the Lord? Just sitting and waiting, or maybe just going with your gut feeling and hoping it is what God would want you to do?
I think the correct way to wait, (patiently) is to worship,pray and seek the Lord, not giving up, and when he does give you an answer, (Because he always does)
(2 Corinthians 1:20)
Pray, serve, worship, seek, and wait.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3b2jw1rjBc